The Worrying....

Well as usual I am worrying about everything. I am thinking that things are not going well. I have absolutely nothing to base this feeling off of. It is just that a feeling. Not scientific fact. I am not having any bleeding or cramping or anything. I feel that my tummy is getting bigger and when I think it isnt I go to the closet and try on some of my clothes. They are not fitting. Having a hard time getting something that is really comfy. I guess I need to go back to Motherhood and see what they have available.
In my state of insecurity I have been praying a lot and I ordered a doppler over the weekend so I will be able to hear my babies until my next ultrasound appointment. I think that will help. I am looking forward to seeing them again! This is such an exciting and scary time for me....I sure wish I could fully let go and enjoy this pregnancy! I am hoping that soon I will be able to. 12 weeks is fast approaching! Only 18 days. I think I can make it........I think.

Ultrasound #4

Well these are not the greatest photos of the babies but I got to see them loud and clear!!! I was not able to listen to the heartbeat because this was a specialist and she said that less than 12 weeks it takes more energy to hear the heartbeat rather than to just see the waves and she said that it causes heat and she didn't want to expose the babies to that right now if she didn't have to. I understand her rationale but I sure wanted to HEAR them today. I will just have to wait until I go to the OB for my 13 week check on July 17th. Not long...not long at all.

I just got back from the perinatologist appointment and she was wonderful. Her ultrasound machine was hooked up to a large flat screen TV monitor so I could see what was going on. She did a great job answering my questions and making me feel at peace about things. She said that everything else looked good. Baby A is measuring 8W5D with a heartbeat of 176 and Baby B is measureing 8W1D with a heartbeat of 165 I am actually 8W2D so this is pretty good. It was so neat to see how much they have grown in just one weeks time. Unreal. I am so thrilled that things are looking good. I feel better now. Now I do not have another appointment for anything until July 17th. Why does that seem like forever away? Anyhow, thats OK I will make it. One day at a time. I will go in for my anatomy scan on Aug. 27th when I am 18 weeks. I am still having that burning, pulling feeling and she said that it was because of my previous C-sections-the scar tissue stretching. She said that this should only improve. Just a sidenote....no vag u/s today!!! I was able to have the abdominal one-MUCH BETTER!!!!

U/S 7W 3D

Here is a so so shot of the babies. The ultrasound tech is really not that great. I told her I would like to have photos of each baby and she was like I am going to try to get it on one picture for you. Baby B looked just like Baby A when she pushed on the transducer a little and then Baby A would be faded out a little. Well we got to see them at least and my how they have grown in just one short week. It was so amazing! I didn't get to scope them out for long because she was in a hurry or something but at least I got to see them and know that things are looking good with them. Both babies are measuring 7W and 1D but that is with her crazy measurements. I really don't think that she took her time.....she was in and out with the camera!!!! Oh well at least I know that they are looking good. I feel better at least for another week! LOL I go to see the high risk perinatologist on Monday June 18th. I am excited about this as she will be doing a level two ultrasound and I will be able to see more.

The Appointment....

Well today I went to talk to the OB nurse at the clinic. It went well. Nothing to complain about for the most part. I will go in next Tuesday to get officially discharged from the RE and get one last u/s and then on June 18th I will go and see a perinatologist for a consultation and u/s. Apparently she will do a level 2 ultrasound. I guess it is a little more in depth from the regular one. Not sure really I havent had one before and if I did they did not say level 2!!! Anyhow my next appointment with the OB is July 17th!!! Can you believe it is that far away? LOL I ams o excited about the babies!!!!! I mean I really am. This is going to be great. Hard at first but overall so great. I can't wait to start shopping for them! Here comes the dilemma.....Tom does not want to know what we are having. He wants it to be a big surprise...While that does seem fun I want to go shopping and not have a bunch of green, tan and yellow stuff. Oh well. I leave this up to him as he doesnt have uch of a say in any of the other things that go on really and he wants to be a part of it so badly!!!! So that is how it stands right now.

Ultrasound #2!!!!!

Well I went for my second ultrasound today and they said that everything looks really good! I am so excited-The babies look good I figure that I am about 6 weeks and 3 days and the babies measured 6 weeks 2 days and 6 weeks 1 day. I get to stop taking the Estrace and I only take the PIO every other day. The Crinone gel I still have to use and I will continue until 14 weeks. Not too bad. I am so excited about the babies. I hope that they just continue growing at this rate!! I talked with the ultrasound lady and she said that I will have just one more u/s next week on the 12th and then I will be released to my OB!!!! At that point she said I will be transferred to a high risk perinatologist just because of the twin factor...plus I had pre-eclampsia with both my boys and I want to be watched very closely this time around. I can't wait to feel the babies moving which will be coming up here pretty fast. I am also going to rent a doppler. I loved it last time. I got it from Bellybeats and it was simply the best item I have ever rented!!! I feel really good about the babies and the pregnancy. Moving forward once again and on the wait until the next ultrasound on the 12th.

The Twins!!!!

Well I couldn't take it anymore. I went to the clinic and asked for an ultrasound! ITS TWINS!!! I know it is still early but it is so exciting. I am still sitting here thinking OMG!!!! I can't believe it. Both babies heartbeats are about 150's-160's. The doctor said that everything looks really good. She said that both babies are just about to the 6 week mark. I got to see the little flicker of their heartbeats and I started crying....It was so amazing! I am soooo thrilled that I went in. I am still going in on Tuesday to check and make sure things are going good. That is fine by me. I don't mind seeing them again!!! I am still sitting here and I just can't believe it. I really can't!!!

Going nuts!!!

I am sitting here thinking about my baby every single second of every day. I wonder what is going on in there. I could not be a "regular" pregnant woman! LOL Waiting until 20 weeks or so for my only u/s! LOL We get spoiled...with IVF. I just keep worrying about things. I will feel better when I see the little nugget on the u/s machine! I still have 5 more days left until I go but at least it is in the works. Working nights is killing me. I am sooo tired all the time-pg+nights=SUPER TIRED! I am so happy about the baby but so scared. I guess after a miscarriage it is always there as a thought in the back of your mind. I so try to fight it but it is so hard. I am just going to wait and wait until Tuesday at 9:45!!!