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The Pile O Sticks..

Well here is a photo of the pile of sticks that I used to help my sanity! I love pee sticks. I really do. Yeah I am a cheater but I love it. So glad that they make these things. I am still so happy about the pregnancy but sooo worried. It brings along all of its own worries! I am trying to take each day as it comes but that is so hard when you are trying to be patient! HEHE I mean trying. I am so excited to see the u/s and what is going on in there. I need to buy my own machine like Tom Cruise did. That would really be awesome! Oh well I continue to wait.

About the photo these were taken from my upstairs bathroom! I still have more hidden but didn't want to look like a pee stick freak! Or did I already do that? I just thought that it was so funny to have this huge pile of pee sticks....

Qualifications for a POAS addiction....

This was posted on my fertility page by a friend on the board and I thought that it was sooo funny so I copied it and put it here because it is sooo true!!!



Qualifications for POAS addiction: - you have to have purchased not 1 or not even 2 but SEVERAL hpts to take. - you start testing early to make sure that hcg from the trigger shot has left your system. You're elated that's it's negative at this point... - Then you start POAS daily, sometimes more than once a day to check for the faintest of lines. - for each test, you keep in an accessible location so you can pick it up and look at it at LEAST 20 times a day. (I keep mine on the bathroom counter and the bathroom seems to suck me in every time I walk by it) - you've been in ever position imaginable, even on your head, studying the test to see if you see some type of line - you hold the test, while standing on your head also, in different lights (believe me, I've tried them all) - you keep all of your used test, date them, lay them in order to analyze the line getting darker - you feel you need to keep it a secret from DH cause you're afraid he will think you are loosing it. You test secretly, early hours of the morning. - you've become a pro at holding your pee for several hours so that you can test again - and yes, my favorite, you drag your child out of bed to get his/her opinion.


I am just sitting here letting my baby grow! Tom comes home and askes "hows the Gamete?" He is so funny. I love him so much. He wants a girl and I am ready for a boy. I mean it really doesnt matter does it? No way! I love either. Just so happy to be pg!!! I can't wait to see the doctor and give him a big hug! Still having little waves of nausea here and there and I am loving it!!!!

Well its a BFP!!!!

Well the official news came today in the form of a phone call from the IVF nurse god!!! LOL She called and said that it was a BFP with a beta of 708. I am so thrilled by this. I can hardly even type! I am so excited!!! I am running around jumping for joy here! It is so exciting! They do not do another beta because it was high already so they do not need to do another one. I am happy about that as I nearly vomit the closer it gets to 4 that I wait for the call. I go in for an u/s on June 5th to see what is happening in there. Hummmmm we did have 2 embryos put back in. Who knows. I am just glad that something is going on in there! I will be reporting the next news as I get it in!

More Sticks...10DPT

Ok Ok so I am an addict. I can's help it. I am just so worried about the problems of yesterday...i shouldn't be I really shouldn't be. Every twinge and pull I am feeling like I might lose the baby. I mean I am so trying to stay focused on being positive but it is so hard right now. I am emotional and I just want everything to work out ok. It is hard going through this repeatedly. With my BFN with the FET I didn't have any of the AF type cramping but it sure feels like she is going to pay a visit anyday now...Anyhow on to the meat of the day. Here is an Accuclear test and the test line is as dark as the control line!!! I am so excited about this! This test is one of the cheaper Target tests and it says online that it picks up 50 mIU of HCG in the urine. I am so pleased about this. It says that you should only use it on the first day of your missed period! I am before that so it is awesome. It calms my shaky nerves! LOL

The waiting game

Well still waiting. The boys pray over me just about every day about the health of the baby(ies) that are in there. I am so happy about this and it is so cute. They are really good little boys and I love them dearly. Things are going the same ol' same ol'. Still waiting in this torture time. I hate these two weeks. I know it will be good to get a good result on my beta but the waiting stinks! I really does. I wish that we could find out just a little sooner. I really want to know what the heck is going on-with the official word. I keep sitting here staring at all the pee sticks wondering if they are really true? Can they be? I mean I was getting the positives before my shot and I only had a half dose so could it be? I have no idea. It is so hard to think that I could be pg. Really it is. So looking forward to finding out.....

Everything Looks Good

Well no call from the nurse today so the blood levels must be great! I am happy about that. No changes. I asked about the beta test today and they said that they only will do one test and if it is at a high level they do not do another test. I always thought that they did 3 of them to check to see that they are increasing. Now I am sitting here so nervous about what is going on inside...I just want to know. I am doubting the tests...even the tests that I had before the shot! Isn't that crazy? Wouldn't you think that I would be happy? I am so emotional. This is all an emotional roller coaster. I hate it. I really do. Why can't things just work out for once? I have been prepared to start bawling at any minute and it is really driving me nutty! I just wish I didn't have to take that shot so that I could be checking with the sticks more....I am a pee-on-a-stick-a-holic!!!! I really am. I just want to know so badly. I know just shut up and deal with it right and quit whining? OK...Until next time.