The Plan...

I have been through a lot on my personal journey for this baby. Last year I did my first round of IVF-ICSI and got pregnant with one baby (I had 2 embryos transferred). I ended up going into labor at 12 weeks and lost the baby. It was the worst time of my life to have to go through that. It was unbelievable. I have never felt such pain and heartache in my entire life. I can't even begin to explain what it was like. People say "oh it was so early" and "at least it happened then instead of at 30 weeks". Like who cares about that at what does that mean anyhow? I still lost the baby I had grown to love. Listening to the little heartbeat and seeing the U/S every week. It was so hard to deal with....so hard. Anyhow in order to have some sort of semblence of normality (for me anyhow) I had to have a plan. I went through FET in January of this year and unfortunately it was a BFN!!! It was sad and I did need a few days to kind of regroup after that little ordeal. Tom was a great source of support for me and helped me more than words can say. I try not to lay everything on him all the time because he would go bonkers, I think!!!! I am sure it is on my mind more than his on a daily basis! Women...its what we do. Fret. :) Anyhow so that brings us to here and we are getting ready to start a new cycle. It should be interesting. I am supposed to have my phone consultation with the nurse on the 3rd of April to let me know what medications I will need to order and when I will be starting everything. As far as I know I will be starting the Lupron on April 13th. I am very excited to have a "plan" and to get going on things.